The calls that end too soon
The call lasts four minutes. You ask about work, and he says it’s fine. You ask about the weekend, and he says busy. Then a pause long enough to hear the television on his end, and “I should go, Mom.” Afterward you sit with the phone in your lap, going back over every word.
“My grown son barely speaks to me. What did I do, and is there still a way back?” Notice how you asked it. Not what’s wrong with him. What did I do. Even now, in this much pain, you start by looking at yourself.
You were born with both the Sun and the Moon in Libra. Libra lives through connection. It knows how life is going by how things are between people, and when the space between you and someone you love goes cold, it feels as if the floor has tilted. Of course you search for the cause. A cause could be fixed.
But distance between a grown son and his mother rarely comes from one thing. Sometimes it’s an old hurt on his side that you never saw. Sometimes it’s something in his own life he can’t say out loud, to you or anyone. Sometimes it’s a hundred small moments where you both meant well and missed each other. None of that makes either of you the one to blame.
Your Capricorn rising keeps a steady face, so people probably think you’re handling this fine. Underneath, there may be something you haven’t let yourself feel. Not guilt. Just missing him. Missing the boy who used to tell you everything, and the man you would love to know.
As for a way back, no one can see that road from here. What can be seen is this: the love in your question is still there. On your side, the door is still open, and it doesn’t need pushing to stay that way.
Missing him is not a mistake you made. It’s what your love looks like from this distance.